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Tuesday, September 30, 2008

The Infirmary

I just wanted to let everyone know that I am still alive. Since we got home Raylen has been sick. She is just now almost well today. I haven't been feeling well since last Wednesday evening. Right now I have completely lost my voice, which is very frustrating. When I get frustrated I want to yell. So you can only imagine how insane I have felt not being able to speak above a whisper, let along raise my voice. I've decided that God may be telling me that I need to find a better means of communicating when I am frustrated. (I'm pretty sure I just heard a big "AMEN" from Josh and the kids!)

I have so much that I want to write about. Our evacuation was quite an adventure that very much deserves being written about. I have also been on somewhat of an emotional rollercoaster. Stress is partly to blame for this, but the other part is that God has placed some very strong and serious desires on my heart that I have been wrestling with. I am longing to share with you all and give you some specific issues to be praying about(we all know how my obsessive self loves to pray as specifically as I possibly can. Can somebody say "Control freak!"?)

Anyway, I told Josh that if I'm not feeling better by tomorrow that I'm going to go jump off a bridge. (I am totally just kidding. I just haven't been this sick for this long in many years. Seriously.) But hopefully everyone will be feeling great and things will be back to normal in the next couple of days and I can get to posting! I have been missing ya'll very much and I am dying to catch up.

Much love.

Love you

3 comments:

sweet jenn said...

You always completely encourage me every time I read your posts and every time you leave me a comment. You are so completely sweet and loving and I love you and cherish you so much...more than you know. I will be praying for your voice...I know how it feels..lol...and also for whatever it is that God is telling you. Seems like sometimes He takes you a long way around whatever it is He is trying to get across to you and when you finally get to the point you completely have a spiritual "a-ha" like Patrick says..lol. It never makes sense when you are going through it but when you get to the end everything always ends up making sense. Keep up your smile and never stop looking to what it is He is doing. xoxo

Mom2Mcube said...

I hope you are feeling better. Unfortunately, I now have what itsounds like you had. I'm really missing my voice. LOL I got this same stuff after Rita. I think the drs. called it Post-Rita Syndrome. So, I guess we'll call this Post-Ike! LOL

Rooney's Little Musings said...

Jessica,

Hope you're feeling better! Can't wait to hear what to pray specifically for, for you. I am one of those control freak specific prayers too!